Monday Musings: Pain

Monday Musings: Pain

Trigger Warning: this poem contains thoughts of suicide and other mental health issues. It was written over 8 years ago, and does not reflect who I am now. Please seek help if you find yourself with these thoughts and emotions. I am sharing this to show there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and you are not alone.

If you are currently struggling with your mental health, please reach out to a friend/family member and check out these resources:

Pain

You think you know real pain:
the sting of a cut,
the crack of a bone.

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Spoilers! Mid-Year 2019 Blog + Personal Resolutions

Spoilers! Mid-Year 2019 Blog + Personal Resolutions

It’s that time of the year where I check in on all of the resolutions I made at the beginning of 2019! I really needed this refresher after taking a break in May. I won’t be necessarily changing my 2019 resolutions, but I do think I should revise some of my goals after coming back from a mental health break due to burn out. I have a new posting schedule, and my goals should reflect that.

I’ve made great strides towards a lot of these resolutions, but others have fallen to the wayside (as they do sometimes). My mental health break was a great learning experience in that I realized what is most important to me, and how I can better handle future cases of burn out. Let’s be honest though, I want to avoid burn out again as much as possible. I have a feeling the year 2020’s resolutions will be much different from this year!

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Monday Musings: Part Two – What Lies Below

Monday Musings: Part Two – What Lies Below

Part Two – What Lies Below

You’ve gone away for awhile;

I know you’ll be back.

I just have to wait;

I miss you so bad.

 

I wonder how your life is;

Do you have someone?

The thought makes my heart ache;

To you, am I special?

 

My heart almost stops;

My thoughts halt.

Did I just think that?

This is your fault.

 

And that makes me smile;

When did I last feel this way?

Before he left me;

You left me here to stay.

 

I think I’m falling again;

Last time I was afraid.

I was afraid to let go;

Am I afraid of what lies below?

 

I was afraid to fall too far;

That things would become blurry.

I can see fine now;

Will you catch me?

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This poem is a part of a series. See the Prelude, Part One, and Interruption here. Thanks for reading.