Trigger Warning: this poem contains thoughts of suicide and other mental health issues. It was written over 8 years ago, and does not reflect who I am now. Please seek help if you find yourself with these thoughts and emotions. I am sharing this to show there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and you are not alone.
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You think you know real pain:
the sting of a cut,
the crack of a bone.
Continue reading “Monday Musings: Pain”
Tear My Castle Down
I’m standing on my castle which stands on the world.
So why does everyone think I’m standing on them?
I stand here alone; I don’t need a boy or girl.
I can do this without you, all by myself.
Continue reading “Monday Musings: Tear My Castle Down”
I can’t get you off my mind;
Thoughts of you keep me awake at night.
I toss and turn; there is no relief,
Not until you are again laying next to me.
Continue reading “Monday Musings: Beautiful Nightmares”
It’s that time of the year where I check in on all of the resolutions I made at the beginning of 2019! I really needed this refresher after taking a break in May. I won’t be necessarily changing my 2019 resolutions, but I do think I should revise some of my goals after coming back from a mental health break due to burn out. I have a new posting schedule, and my goals should reflect that.
I’ve made great strides towards a lot of these resolutions, but others have fallen to the wayside (as they do sometimes). My mental health break was a great learning experience in that I realized what is most important to me, and how I can better handle future cases of burn out. Let’s be honest though, I want to avoid burn out again as much as possible. I have a feeling the year 2020’s resolutions will be much different from this year!
Continue reading “Spoilers! Mid-Year 2019 Blog + Personal Resolutions”
There is no one who is going to save you here.
If you are broken, the pieces are yours to pick up.
If you are afraid, it is up to you to conquer your fear.
There is no knight in shining armor, and you do not have to wait to be saved.
Save yourself because no one else is going to do it.
Even though you may not love someone anymore,
they still have left marks on your soul that you have to deal with.
Sometimes you have to find yourself again,
but it’s even better when someone reminds you of who you have always been;
you just had to drop the darkness the other person left behind for you to carry.
Part Two – What Lies Below
You’ve gone away for awhile;
I know you’ll be back.
I just have to wait;
I miss you so bad.
I wonder how your life is;
Do you have someone?
The thought makes my heart ache;
To you, am I special?
My heart almost stops;
My thoughts halt.
Did I just think that?
This is your fault.
And that makes me smile;
When did I last feel this way?
Before he left me;
You left me here to stay.
I think I’m falling again;
Last time I was afraid.
I was afraid to let go;
Am I afraid of what lies below?
I was afraid to fall too far;
That things would become blurry.
I can see fine now;
Will you catch me?
This poem is a part of a series. See the Prelude, Part One, and Interruption here. Thanks for reading.