Link Loves: PS2 Games in the Attic, Why We Still Love Anime, and Are Video Games Healthy?

Link Loves: PS2 Games in the Attic, Why We Still Love Anime, and Are Video Games Healthy?

Welcome to the nineteenth installment of Link Loves. These posts are all about my favorite links of the week! It can include bloggers, articles, news, and other cool links I’m enjoying. If you have a favorite blogger or article, share them with me in the comments!

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Link Loves: Struggles of Gamer Couples, Mental Health with Polaris, Representation in Gaming & a Zelda Inspired Recipe

Link Loves: Struggles of Gamer Couples, Mental Health with Polaris, Representation in Gaming & a Zelda Inspired Recipe

Welcome to the seventeenth installment of Link Loves. These posts are all about my favorite links of the week! It can include bloggers, articles, news, clothing, accessories, and other cool links I’m enjoying. If you have a favorite blogger or article, share them with me in the comments!

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Link Loves: Personal Truth, Mental Health, Harry Potter, & Free Steam Games

Link Loves: Personal Truth, Mental Health, Harry Potter, & Free Steam Games

Welcome to the fifteenth installment of Link Loves. These posts are all about my favorite links of the week! It can include bloggers, articles, news, clothing, accessories, and other cool links I’m enjoying. If you have a favorite blogger or article, share them with me in the comments!

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The Thing About PTSD

The Thing About PTSD
The thing about PTSD —
it’s silent.

It waits. Until you’re in bed — until you close your eyes — then it assaults your sleep, leaving you lying awake, waiting for danger. If you reach precious sleep, it reminds you of its control by plaguing you with nightmares. While you’re awake, you listen. Every stifled noise, every movement out of the corner of your eye could be danger.

The thing about PTSD —
it’s loud.

It screams endlessly in your head. It whispers constantly on your ear. Danger! It calls. Beware! It demands. Remember! It screams. It reminds you of the past. It throws into chaos the future. It reminds you so that you can’t work, you can’t sleep, you can’t concentrate. All you can do is listen.

The thing about PTSD —
it’s omnipresent.

It doesn’t just happen to soldiers, though their pain is never taken seriously enough. It can happen to you, to me, to anyone. It is indiscriminate. It doesn’t care about your race, gender, or religion. It doesn’t care how much money you make. It can happen to you.

The thing about PTSD —
it’s something I have.

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I thought it was just anxiety. “It’s pretty normal to have anxiety,” I remember thinking as I booked my first therapy appointment. I just needed help managing it. It was starting to affect my marriage and my day to day life. I had struggled with it for years, but I knew I needed new tools to handle it better.

After my first session, my therapist dropped the bomb on me. Yes, I have anxiety, but I have PTSD also. I felt like a train screeching to a halt. What? How? Me? Why? I was confused and couldn’t understand. I only came for my anxiety. I didn’t ask for this.

My therapist explained the filing cabinet theory. After seeing and hearing her explanation, I swallowed my initial thoughts and made a second appointment. My therapist sounded like she knew what she was talking about. I recalled in the moment that she specialized in trauma, and I knew I was in good hands.

Piece by piece, we’re going through each event that has led me to here. We’re tearing down each intrusive thought word-by-word. We’re reopening old wounds so that they can finally heal correctly.


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Because the thing about PTSD —
it hurts.

It hurts you. It hurts me. It hurts loved ones. Like a hurricane, it hurts everyone in its path. In the moment, it’s hard to stop. It can be uncontrollable.

The thing about PTSD —
it takes.

It takes your happiness. It takes your sleep. It takes your concentration. It takes your energy. It takes your memories. It takes your breath. It takes your quality of life.

The thing about PTSD —
it robs you.

It robs you of feeling safe, and of your sense of belonging. It robs you of music you can no longer listen to, places you can no longer visit, and hobbies you can no longer love without remembering the trauma.

The thing about PTSD is —
it can be beat!

You can beat it. I can beat it. With the right therapy and the slow progress of attaining a new mindset, it can be beat. I will beat it. You will beat it!

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Design & editing props for this post: Matt @ Normal Happenings.

Spoilers! Life (& Blog) Update

Spoilers! Life (& Blog) Update

Hey y’all! I wanted to take the time today to do a small life update post as well as tell you what’s coming to the blog for the rest of the year. I recently went over my mid year resolutions check in so I thought I’d write this little life (and blog) update too.

Things have been changing since my last immigration post, and by changing I mean all good things are happening! I have some news on Alec’s green card, day-to-day life, our wedding shower in May, and more. You’ll be getting a cute little update on our story in July, and then one more update sometime after October to conclude our immigration journey.  October is the month of our “big” wedding, and January should bring our much anticipated honeymoon.

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