Monday Musings: Too Good To Be True

Monday Musings: Too Good To Be True

Too Good To Be True

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you fit with me,

so perfectly.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you made me laugh,

so happily.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you said you loved me,

so passionately.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you held me tight,

so lovingly.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you lied to me,

so honestly.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you left me,

so abruptly.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way I cried for you,

so stupidly.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you brush me off

just when I need you.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

The way you pushed me away,

so I turned away.

 

I knew you were too good to be true.

And I know now that

I’m too good for you.

cw1

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Monday Musings: In the Shower

Monday Musings: In the Shower

In the Shower

I felt like the water wasn’t hot enough

 

To wash me away…

 

To wash away the memories

The dirt and grime

The tears in my eyes

 

I felt like I couldn’t scrub hard enough

 

To wash it down the drain…

 

To wash away the pain

The lies you told

The feeling of being cold

 

I felt like I couldn’t stand there long enough

 

To wash him off me…

 

To wash away everything

The feelings I have

The love we once had

 

I felt like I couldn’t get dry enough

 

To wash away the tears…

 

To wash away the time

The days I spent with him

The weeks we had spent

 

I felt like I couldn’t sleep enough

 

To dream away my reality…

 

To fall inside of myself

The memories of happiness

The ghost of our last kiss

 

I felt like I couldn’t bleed enough

 

To cut you away from me…

 

To bleed you out

The numbness

The coldness

 

I felt like I couldn’t breathe

 

To breathe meant defeat…

 

To breathe meant you’re gone

The wholeness

The happiness

 

cw1

Monday Musings: Snob

Monday Musings: Snob

Snob

Walk with your nose in the air

hips swaying to your imaginary

song you swear is there.

 

You have smile that’s painted

but I can see the creases in your

forehead that can’t be erased.

 

I wonder if I cut you open

if I’d find another world

or if it’d be like cutting paper.

 

Dye your hair the latest trend,

cake on your fake face,

slide the plastic over the counter,

and pretend to wait.

cw1

Monday Musings: Wait

Monday Musings: Wait

Wait

Buried and suffocating beneath all your old belongings,

hidden under discarded cards and abandoned teddy bears,

I really feel forgotten.

 

I miss the days when you held me closest to your chest,

cuddling me to your heart as the night came and left;

I was the favorite.

 

I lie in wait and hope for your arrival,

just a hint of your coat tail as you slip past,

maybe just your long shadow lying against me,

or even a small wisp of hair, and I would be thankful.

 

And so I wait for you to notice me as I lay at the bottom

of the discarded cards and abandoned teddy bears.

cw1

Monday Musings: I Breathe

Monday Musings: I Breathe
I Breathe

My heart does this thing.

It skips a beat.

It pitter-patters.

Nothing matters

Except you.

 

Your smile warms me down to my toes.

I think everyone knows.

But I won’t say a word to them about it.

It’s our secret.

A secret the whole world knows.

 

They know you hold my hand,

bring me gifts,

kiss my nose,

hug me close.

 

They know it’s you I love,

I want,

I need,

I breathe.

cw1

Monday Musings: Whole.

Monday Musings: Whole.

Whole.

I want to laugh.

I want to cry.

And sometimes,

I don’t even know why.

 

You make me feel so alive

but at the same time,

so dead inside.

 

What did I do to

deserve this pain?

 

I gave you what

I could but nothing

will change.

 

I can’t keep swallowing

these shards of broken

glass you hand me to

ease the pain.

 

I can’t keep handing

over the pieces of

my heart for you to

break all over again.

 

When will you sew the

pieces back together

and keep my heart

safe and warm?

 

When will you see how

much this pain is bearing

down on me and lift

away this burden?

 

Will I ever be whole again?

cw1

Introducing Monday Musings

After that lovely Thanksgiving break, I’m back with some exciting news for the blog! I am adding a new category to A Geeky Gal! Monday Musings are going to be a small place for me to share my poetry and short stories. I know they’re not really geeky, but I talk about mental health here too, so I think we can make this a happy medium!

MondayMusings

Every Monday (well, not every Monday, but a lot!) I hope to share some personal poetry from my old notebooks and social media as well as some short stories that are old and new! My Thanksgiving Day post really pushed me to give this a shot. Let me know what you think. Stay tuned for the very first installment right after this post!

cw1

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