It’s been a rough couple of months, my friends.
I’ve recently been diagnosed with depression. I shouldn’t have found it as shocking as I did, but here we are. After uncovering my stuck points and working on my triggers, I have found depression lurking under the surface of my PTSD and anxiety. I am back in therapy full time to tackle these new obstacles, and, I’m not going lie, I am struggling.
Depression and anxiety have been weighing me down. October was an anniversary of trauma but also the anniversary of the best day of my life. I’ve felt pulled in different directions. I’ve questioned myself, my career, my friendships/relationships, and my social media presence. I have struggled with trying to find what is right for me while also trying to discern actual unhappiness and fulfillment from my depression and anxiety. So far, I haven’t been successful.
I want to focus on what I haven’t questioned, too, though. I have never questioned my marriage. I have never questioned going to the gym. I have never questioned going to therapy. I have never questioned my blog or YouTube channel. Those things genuinely make me happy every day. I wish I had more time to give the attention to the things that make me happy.
I’m going to be focusing more on myself, more so than I have ever before. I’m making this an accountability post of sorts. From now on, I’m going to eat better without obsessing over the number on the scale. My goal is to be stronger. I’m going to do things that make me happy. I’m going to find fulfillment in hobbies that aren’t my career. I’m going to make peace with my path changing and my journey taking a route I’m not familiar with. I’m going to focus on my mental health so I can be my best self for me and my husband. I’m going to make time to spend with him and our dog.
October is behind me. November has better things coming my way. I’m putting it into the universe and manifesting the rest of 2019 to be better.
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The way she sits
leaves everyone else
in the dark.
Continue reading “Monday Musings: Mirror”
Welcome to my October 2019 recap! October was a month of Halloween celebratory posts like my 5 Freaky Faves which is a spooky spin on 5 Fandom Friday, but it was also the premier of my first Gaming After Dark review. With the first of November already upon us, let’s take a look at the month of October here on A Geeky Gal!
Continue reading “A Geeky Gal Monthly Recap: October 2019”
To Live Forever
It’s so dark.
The night sky…
I can’t see!
Continue reading “Monday Musings: To Live Forever”
Just like last year for the month of October, I am pulling away from my regular 5 Fandom Friday and Saturday Suggestion posts. Every Friday for the month of October I will be presenting my 5 Freaky Faves in honor of Halloween! This week’s 5 Freaky Faves are 5 horror games you should try! See this post for last year’s 5 Freaky Fave Games!
Rule of Rose
Rule of Rose became a bit of an obsession because I couldn’t find it again after playing it all those years ago. It was a game out of its time. It was weird. It was rare. If it didn’t have a cult following, it should have. — A Geeky Gal
I’ve been playing my personal hidden gem, Rule of Rose, on YouTube so I’m linking my let’s play list so far!
Continue reading “5 Freaky Faves: More Scary Games”
On YouTube I’m doing the Halloween tag! Special thanks to Jaycee at Thinking Moon for tagging me! Alyssa at Nerd Side of Life… You’ve been tagged! (Sorry it’s like a week away from Halloween at this point!)
Continue reading “On YouTube: Halloween Tag 2019 // We Stayed at a Haunted Hotel!”
Last October, Alec and I finally celebrated our marriage with our family and friends in the form of a wedding in my little home town in Alabama. Our first year of being married was a whirl wind of immigration paperwork and appointments, wedding & honeymoon planning, saving money, family members passing, and just trying to navigate the joyous emotions of finally being together after being long distance for about four years.
Continue reading “Spoilers! Two Years of Geeky Marriage Bliss + a Letter to My Spouse”